cant believe im actually pissed off at what my insensitive mom said
Her stuff are gone and she asks where it is. i told her i only used it once and so i didnt think that it was me. and then my sister says she thinks it was cause im always using things then lying about it-.-
okay yes it's not as if i cant take jokes. so i laughed it off cause she was kidding then when my mom couldnt find it then she was like: ''so is this it? you always have a reputation for lying"
WHAT THE FUCK? IT WAS A FUCKING JOKE AND NOT SERIOUS? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER?? WILL SHE NOT STOP ACCUSING ME OF TAKING HER BLOODY FOAM WASH AND GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE?
WHAT THE HELL AND SHE DOESNT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FUCK SHE SAID WRONG?
WHAT THE FUCK
i swear i have the most unsupportive and discouraging mother in the world. she never ever encourages me and praising me will literally take a pound of flesh out of her.she smsed and asked what was wrong.. wth WHAT IS WRONG? im telling you now it's how unsupportive discouraging biased mother she is.

nono im not biased i love each and everyone of you equally.well yeah you dont fucking show it.

i cant believe it
this is the second post of the day and i have currently more to complain about
i cant believe my relatives
my aunt can remember what the other do eat and wont eat and she doesnt remember mine. i  left the last abalone for my parents are what did they do? they have it to the youngest one. then my uncle says that the younger one is dainty and lady like unlike the other two. then he quickly turns and tell the older one that it's okay for her to be unlady like cause a lawyer doesnt need to be like that. she can be ruthless and whatever shit. and my mom didnt bother to stand up for me. just like how she didnt stand up for me years ago when my uncle called me the ugliest out of the three. what the fuck is this? the middle child curse? people expect something form the first and adore the younger one. does it ever cross their mind that there is a middle one that is minutely sandwiched in between the two fabulous and gorgeous angels? even my granny said i should go for plastic cause my nose bridge is low and my eyes are small. she asked me why my eyes appeared so big at dinner and so small when i went over to her house 3 days ago. I WAS FUCKING THE ONLY ONE THAT WENT OVER TO TALK AND KEEP HER COMPANY.



i try okay. i really go all out to try and be a filial asian kid but whatever i do is just never enough for them. no matter how i try to lose weight, how i try to doll myself up... what ever i do is always worst than the other two. it's not that i have a serious inferiority complex, my family and relatives just make ot so apparent that i am really the worst out of the three. i didnt even get to call them at dinner. after the younger one greeted them they immediately started on dinner and didnt bother to wait for me to greet them, HELLO? IM LIKE FUCKING IN FRONT OF YOUR FUCKED UP FACES CAN YOU NOT FUCKING SEE ME?




WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE HUH? AM I NOT SIGNIFICANT ENOUGH FOR ALL YOU MIGHTY KINGS AND QUEENS TO RESISTER A LOWLY SUBJECT AS I IN YOUR FUCKING AWESOME MIND?




i fucking swear im going to get that 6 points at o level exams this year abd show all you fucking bitches that im fucking smart so just admit it already. i have heard like 4 negative comments about my intellectual smarts and my appearance. i am fucking sensitive to negative comments okay? i just hate them

it's only the first day of cny and i cant wait for it to end..
sometimes i really hate my family ---- relatives to be exact
all they do is to keep tossing hurtful comments my way. What is this an asian tradition to poke fun at the ill fated middle child?
what the fuck is wrong with these narcissistic sadistic bitches of life?
they croon over my younger sister.. saying how pretty she is how skinny she is how cute her things are how different and mature she looks now

and then everyone adores the older one about her job about her post schooling life about everything
heck , they even compliment her for her smile in photots when it's exactly the same as mine
. yeah that's what everyone says. that me and my older sister look alike but she's just prettier smarter and everything that im not. the worst part is i have been watching my diet like some fuck and what the fuck happens?i get a
 comment like this:" $%*&((&^%$$#@%^&*( watch your diet"
Me: huh what?
irritating relative: " i said you must start watching your diet''
what the fuck that was the most fucking offensive thing i've heard so far this year.i have been going to the gym and saying no to sinful food so religiously
and on the other hand he said that my plump older sister has slim down, he even said my overweight cousin has lost weight. what the fuck is his problem?

so what if im not as fucking skinny as his anorexic girlfriend? what the hell he's like what? 23, has a son, divorced and is on his third girlfriend?
i am fucking skinner than the two of them and he has to say these to poke at my ego. what do i have a billboard sign over my head that say hey over here!! call me fat or you're a dickhead
what is up with asian relatives? NOONE has passed a single good comment about me today. NOONE. and that';s why i always shut up at gatherings. because there is no one worth talking to. i dont think any one understand how i feel.
except for the rest of the middle childs in the world

i googled and there's something called a middle child syndrome

"Middle kids bemoan their fate as being ignored and often grow resentful of all the parental attention given to the oldest and the baby of the family, and feel short-shifted. Three kids triangulate sibling relationships, with one child at any given point feeling like the odd man out from the chumminess of the other two.
Parents tend to be much more easy-going, less anxious, and less demanding with second and third children. Thus many middle children grow up with a more relaxed attitude towards life than their older siblings; though they have to compete for family attention against the milestones set by the oldest, and growing up in their shadow. Middle children have to try a little harder to “be heard” or get noticed. The middle child usually has to fight harder for the attention of their parents and therefore crave the family spotlight. They may feel that they do not get as much praise as the older children for simple firsts like tying a shoe or riding a bike. Those things just become expected."
 

agreed

Middle Born #1

 

• Loner
• Quiet Shy
• Impatient
• Uptight

Middle Born #2

• Outgoing
• Friendly
• Loud
• Laid back
• Patient

Middle born children are quite difficult to pin down, however they tend to be the opposite of their older sibling. There are however, a few characteristics that both types of middle born share.
Common Traits

• Flexible
• Diplomatic
• Rebellious
• Attention seeking
• Competitive
• Peacemakers

yes hard to believe but i match every single trait here. i can be laid back and yet uptight at times. it's weird but im just like that.
Second Child Characteristics

Because you can't seem to show the same excitement about your second child, as you do with your first-born, he/she is likely to develop certain 'second child traits' so that your attention will be drawn towards them.

• They may not respond to your bout of affection as a way of probably making you feel guilty about not giving them enough time. However, don't let this demotivate you. They want it much more than you could imagine.
• They are likely to do things that get them into trouble, simply as a way of seeking attention from you. Don't allow it all the time, but don't constantly reprimand them for it either.
• Your second child definitely hates a comparison to his older sibling. You simply must not say 'why can't you be like your brother/sister?', because this will further instigate him to behave otherwise.
• You are bound to face a negative attitude, a lot of sarcasm, and persistent anger from them. However, maintain your patience in such situations. These are walls they have built around them, that you can break through only over time with lots of love and affection.
• Because of the ignorance they may have faced, a second child may not be very ambitious, thinking that his efforts are not going to be recognized anyway. A second child may also face problems when it comes to dealing with pressure.
• Not every second child may behave in the aforementioned manner, but it is one of the fairly common behavioral problems in children that you may have to deal with. The second child tends to be a loner, and may not be very great with intimate relationships. He may not value them as much as his older sibling does, and this may manifest into commitment problems in the future.

i definitely have middle child syndrome
im always the worst